Alphabet Story

A twinkle of light appeared through the sky blue curtains.

Beneath my head, lay a puddle of tears.

Carefully, I sat up, head in my hands, weeping.

Down the stairs I went, slowly.

Energy deprived, I plonked myself onto the couch, curling up into a ball.

Falling... I felt like I was falling. Pain shot through my body.

God dammit, I was in so much pain. Every word caused hurt.

How do I stop this? How do I make it go away?

Is it that I'm not good enough? Maybe that's why others say these things.

"Just go kill yourself" they say, "when will you stop being a waste of space?" they say.

Knowing people actually make me feel like this, hurts like hell.

Let me tell you one thing, I'm afraid. My friends tell me I'm brave, I walk around with not a care in the world, a smile on my face, but truthfully, they don't know the real me.

Makes me feel like crap to be honest... But what if it's true?

Now's the time I should take action, tell someone.

Or maybe I should stop being a waste of space...

Please can this stop? I wake up in the middle of the night everyday, nightmares scarring my mind.

Quickly, I feel like I'm worthless, Mum tells me I'm beautiful, but I'm her daughter, of course she's going to say something nice, she wouldn't say anything bad would she.

Rich moonlight is fading, the sun soon beginning to rise.

Serenity fills the house, you could hear a pin drop, well that's if it wasn't for my sniffling.

Think it's time I should probably take some sort of action.

Up the stairs I go, tiptoeing with every step I make

Very slowly, I make my way to my room, open the window, and climb up to the roof using the gutter.

When I reach the top, I shut my eyes, tight.

Xanthoceras' sit pretty on the ground while I sit anxiously on the orange coloured roof, debating life,

Yet I know this is not the best option, I feel like this is the only way to kill the pain

Zillions of things play on my mind, it's time to end this. Before I know it, I feel like i'm flying... the pain, suddenly came to a stop.